1.Before ＆ After (Feat. Mary Chapin Carpenter)
The dust settles after a hit and run
Bewildered by the damage done
I don't know why we choose the roads we travel
Or how a life could get so unraveled.
We live our lives from then until now,
By the mercies received or the mark upon our brow
To my heart I'll collect what the four winds will scatter
And frame my life into before and after.
Once a trick of light made me believe,
A red fire was blazing from every tree.
We held hands as the evening gathered.
I forgave myself for what I didn't ask her.
I once saw the sky filled with falling stars
Bumped my head in the dark and it left a scar
Held on too tight before I let it go,
Then forgave myself for what I didn't know.
We live our lives from then until now,
By the mercies received or the mark upon our brow
To my heart I'll collect what the four winds will scatter
And frame my life into before and after.
I've stretched my soul over fifty states,
I have lived on fumes and religious cornflakes,
And once I dreamt my shoe had grown thin and battered,
And forgave myself for what didn't matter.
God said Cain where is your brother,
And who will tell his grieving mother？
Jacob dreamt an angel called his name
And he never was quite the same
We live our lives from then until now,
By the mercies received or the mark upon our brow
To my heart I'll collect what the four winds will scatter
And frame my life into before and after.
2.Ghost Train
There's a light in the darkness just barely out of view
From the corner of your vision it beckons to you.
After the crops have all come in amid the stubble and the chaff
Keep on walking when it whispers and don't look back.
Some say it's the Ghost Train's headlight or poor Wayland
Smiths' pyre
Some say it's the Will o the Wisp or St. Elmo's fire,
Or the ghost of wandering spirits that got lost between the
worlds.
Keep on walking when they whisper or if the lines begin to blur.
When it's done it's said and done.
What it's gone it's good and gone.
Sometimes there's nothing left to do,
But pack it up and move along.
I'm not saying don't remember or that all things can be repaired
But after the truth's been told where do we go from there？
Sorrow is a constant companion we learn just to walk beside.
Keep walking when it whispers and don't listen when it lies.
When it's done it's said and done.
What it's gone it's good and gone.
Sometimes there's nothing left to do,
But pack it up and move along.
There are stories we were told just to keep us in our place.
There are stories we made up ourselves to save a little face.
There the ones that made us crazy and the ones that kept us
sane,
Keep on walking if the stories all start to sound the same.
When it's done it's said and done.
What it's gone it's good and gone.
Sometimes there's nothing left to do,
But pack it up and move along.
When it's done it's said and done.
What it's gone it's good and gone.
Sometimes there's nothing left to do,
But pack it up and move along.
Sometimes there's nothing left to do,
But pack it up and move along.
Sometimes there's nothing left to do,
But pack it up and move along.
3.I Do Not Know Its Name
He leaned in and whispered as he turned the page,
And he said 'Make yourself into a flame'
A crazy old lion with his hair all backlit,
Grinnin' like a little boy who has a secret.
I do not know its name
Though it's ever intertwining,
And I believe it must look like an old man shining
We were eating summer peaches by a roadside stand,
Juice running down like laughter on our chin and on our hands
When we were done we looked around and smiled at each other,
And you said, 'Come on Carrie, let's have another.'
And I do not know its name
No matter how I try
But I believe it must taste like peaches eaten by the roadside
He drove a rental car shuttle to the airport on Sundays
We chatted that grey morning 'bout the choir he sang with
Wednesdays.
He sang a haunting gospel hymn shameless and clear,
With only me a wandering stranger sitting there to hear.
I do not know its name
Elusive and subtle,
But I believe it must sound like that man singing in the
shuttle.
Standing in the river barefoot in the current,
I hear the sound of a birdcall and try to learn it.
The water is a wonder, it's cold and fast and deep,
I saw fish go swimming out too far for me to reach.
I do not know its name,
Swimmer or watcher.
But I believe that there is always something,
Moving beneath the water.
If holy is a sphere that cannot be rendered,
There is no middle place because all of it is center
I do not know its name
I do not know its name
I do not know its name
4.Stones In The River
There's a crack in the glass where the water gets out.
There's a dusty wind when the heart's in drought.
And the map of the world looks as if true north,
Disappeared entirely.
I can live divided or bent
Conspire in my own diminishment
Or believe in the better world I've dreamt
That grows from inside out
So today I'll drop stones into the river.
And the current takes them out into forever.
And the truth is most of us will never know,
Where our best intentions go.
And still I'll drop another stone.
So we trust in a dim flashlight,
And always walk into available light.
I'm not a woman inclined to bet,
But it's never failed me yet.
So today I'll drop stones into the river.
And the current takes them out into forever.
And the truth is most of us will never know,
Where our best intentions go.
And still I'll drop another stone.
So today we'll drop stones into the river.
And the current takes them out into forever.
And the truth is most of us will never know,
Where our best intentions go.
And still we'll drop another stone.
The empty self still hears the call,
To live in the center of the ache and awe.
It's there the hope of the whole world shines.
And yes, there still is time.
So today I'll drop stones into the river.
And the current takes them out into forever.
And the truth is most of us will never know,
Where our best intentions go.
And still I'll drop another stone.
5.If Not Now
If not now, tell me when
If not now, tell me when.
We may never see this moment
Or place in time again
If not now, if not now, tell me when.
I see sorrow and trouble in this land
I see sorrow and trouble in this land
Although there will be struggle we'll make the change we can.
If not now, If not now, tell me when.
If not now, tell me when
If not now, tell me when.
We may never see this moment
Or place in time again
If not now, if not now, tell me when.
I may never see the Promised Land.
I may never see the Promised Land.
And yet we'll take the journey
And walk it hand in hand
If not now, If not now, tell me when.
If not now, tell me when
If not now, tell me when.
We may never see this moment
Or place in time again
If not now, if not now, tell me when.
So we'll work it 'til it's done
Every daughter every son,
Every soul that ever longed for something better,
Something brighter.
It will take a change of heart for this to mend.
It will take a change of heart for this to mend.
But miracles do happen every shining now and then
If not now, tell me when？
If not now, tell me when
If not now, tell me when.
We may never see this moment
Or place in time again
If not now, if not now, tell me when.
And, miracles do happen every shining now and then.
If not not, if not now tell me when
If not not, if not now tell me when
6.A Small Flashlight
The way is dark up ahead of me.
The way is dark and I cannot see.
What I love the most is a flashlight beam,
Lighting up the way when I cannot see.
The way unfolds like an open hand.
The way unfolds like I didn't plan.
And only in looking back do we understand,
That the way was true as an open hand.
Over trials and trouble I've already come.
And the net appeared when I needed one.
Yes the road is dark and the ground is rough,
Most the time a flashlight has to be enough.
We move forward one step at a time,
Wide-eyed and hopeful, lost and half blind,
Mistake by mistake, we all learn to be kind.
There is so much to see and to realize,
If I could close my mouth and open up my eyes
And the world will tell us more than enough lies.
But we'll find our way with a small flashlight.
7.I Meant To Do My Work Today
I meant to do my work today,
So many plans I had made.
I'd check the mail, I'd make the calls
Save the world and sweep the hall,
Finally get my accounting done,
Sort the beans one by one,
But I got waylaid by the morning sun.
And I got absolutely nothing done.
I thought I'd live a louder life.
I'd learn a lot and get it right.
I'd rent a loft I'd drink all night,
I'd be a living archetype,
And in a blinding flash of light,
I'd see that one great insight,
But silence called me deeper still.
Like nothing else ever will.
I woke to hear an owl nearby,
Hunting something large enough to cry.
Nature's always beautiful,
The change of season always right,
The moon shines cold and true and bright,
And sets at dawn without a fight,
And yet I could not find a way,
To get myself back to sleep last night.
I never knew just what it meant
The way you smiled while you dreamt.
And why my heart can overflow,
And why mistakes can haunt me so,
Why nothing ever stops or stays,
Dust shimmers in the morning rays,
I didn't do the work that I'd had said.
I just wandered through these thoughts instead.
8.A Simple Change Of Heart
There has never been a day
When the world wasn't new,
When the sun didn't rise,
Or the light breaks on through.
Things might get a little worse,
Before they get a little better.
But there are always clearer skies,
Stretching out beyond bad weather and
The world holds its breath
To see where we'll incline this time.
I feel something has shifted,
I know the story's changed.
In the window of a crisis,
We can build a better frame.
Come on and look inside you
That's the best place to start.
The greatest revolution
Is a simple change of heart.
I can't put the sacred in such a little box
Because it's not.
There's no shame in learning something
When there's something that must be learned.
But there's danger when we will not see.
What our actions earn.
Courage doesn't always shout
But whispers and reminds,
When we get up one more morning
And try one more time.
We tried yelling at each other,
It hasn't worked so well.
Throwing gas on fire,
Never helped as far as I can tell
Throwing stones cut deep,
A little kindness goes deeper still.
9.Hush
You can rest your head upon my heart,
And we'll curl into a question mark,
And I'll hold you in the arms of Hush,
And love will have to be enough.
There's a time laugh and a time to grieve
A time to speak and a time to breathe.
Let the silence be the place we meet
In the space between heart beats
Hey la hey la hey li
Hush my darling hush a bye.
Sparrows fall and sparrow fly,
And we may not ever know why.
Some things we can forgive one time,
Then it's out of sight and it's out of mind.
Some things we have to forgive twice,
And every day for all our lives.
Hey la hey la hey li
Hush my darling hush a bye.
Sparrows fall and sparrow fly,
And we may not ever know why.
The known world is an open letter,
The unknown world we'll brave together.
I'll knit you a redemption sweater,
To wrap your troubles in
You can rest your head upon my heart,
And we'll curl into a question mark,
And I'll hold you in the arms of hush.
And love will have to be enough.
Hey la hey la hey li
Hush my darling hush a bye.
Sparrows fall and sparrow fly,
And we may not ever know why.
Hey la hey la hey li
Hush my darling hush a bye.
Sparrows fall and sparrow fly,
And we may not ever know why.
And we may not ever know why.
Hush my darling hush a bye.
10.Coy Dogs
There have been too many leavings to list in one place.
Too many arrivals to ever retrace
And all who have wandered have not fallen from grace,
Just done a few things they'd like to erase,
And met with their shadows face to face.
Up on the ridge top a coy dog cries,
It's the mother a coyote with bright yellow eyes.
A coy dog' s half friendly the other half wild,
Half is homebody and half is streetwise,
It can't help it's nature and but God know it tries.
Star light star bright,
All the dogs are restless tonight.
Leave on the porch light,
I'll be home after midnight.
It's all blessed and restless and up for debate,
A season and chance to alter a fate,
But a moment can pass just because it can't wait
And time hits you hard with terrible weight,
Like a rock to the forehead stamped with 'Too Late.'
Star light star bright,
All the dogs are restless tonight.
Leave on the porch light,
I'll be home after midnight.
Our vision is often faulty.
We see but through the glass darkly.
And yet, we know deep down,
When we hear the sound,
When it speaks our name.
The moon eats is center until it dissolves,
Then conquers the shadow with single resolve.
Here's to hoping for wholeness no matter how small,
Asking the questions that cannot be solved.
And following the ache of unnamable call.
Star light star bright,
All the dogs are restless tonight.
Leave on the porch light,
I'll be home after midnight.
I'll be home after midnight.
I'll be home after midnight.
11.Do No Harm
John Roth had a heart like flame,
he believed all souls were loved the same.
He packed up his hopes and his family
and moved to Ohio.
There in the deep dark wilderness,
with a newborn son he soon was blessed.
Raised him up in the ways of the old prophets,
and named him Isaiah Roth.
Do no harm shed no blood, the only law here is love.
We can call the kingdom down here on earth.
Beat your swords into plows, don't be afraid I'll show how.
Lift your eyes to the skies. All is holy here
The forest people soon came near.
His message to the red children clear.
We can build the peaceable kingdom here
in shadows of these trees.
They planted oats and beans and maize.
They planted their hearts in the dirt of that place.
And they learned to speak of hope and grace
in language of John Roth.
Do no harm shed no blood, the only law here is love.
We can call the kingdom down here on earth.
Beat your swords into plows, don't be afraid I'll show how.
Lift your eyes to the skies. All is holy here
When Isaiah Roth had just turned ten
he was working in the loft again.
He looked out and saw eight white men
come riding up that day.
The men shouted out from the deepening glade
saying, Ya'll come on out an we can trade
The forest people walked out unafraid
with smiles and open hands.
The white traders brought up their guns,
And them shot down each and every one.
And the Eden that John Roth begun,
Lay bleeding on the ground.
Do no harm shed no blood, the only law here is love.
We can call the kingdom down here on earth.
Beat your swords into plows, don't be afraid I'll show how.
Lift your eyes to the skies. All is holy here
The world has aged by 50 years.
The Quakers came and settled near.
Old Isaiah Roth still preaches here,
that the greatest law is love.
Some people say it's all a scam,
just the ravings of some old man.
But Isaiah Roth says he still can,
see Eden on the hill.
Do no harm, shed no blood,
The only law here is love.
12.I Wish I May,I Wish I Might
Sweet Corn Days in Oakland City,
The Apple Fest in Nappanee,
The Blueberry Cavalcade,
The Sacred Heart Polish Days,
Oktoberfest in Rensselaer,
Marshmallow Days in Ligonier,
The Feast of the Hunter's Moon,
The Pork and Pumpkin Rendezvous.
At this year's county fair
All our friends will be there.
Gather kin and cousins near,
And everything we love is here.
Soybean Fest in Rising Sun
Scarecrow Days in Wanatah
The Bean Blossom Jamboree,
Maple Syrup Fest in Wawasee,
Popcorn Fair in Versailles,
The Mennonite Relief Quilt Sale,
A fish fry, gala, holiday,
Covered Bridge and Dogwood Days.
There'll be fireworks and lemonade
A tractor pull and fine parade.
There'll a gospel jubilee,
Right before they crown the sausage queen.
Bingo games and, polka bands,
Arts and crafts made by hand,
Pierogies, sweet corn on a stick,
Carnival rides think of it,
Now I am grown and miles away,
From apple nights and limestone days,
I wish I may I wish I might,
Be at the county fair tonight
13.A Crash Of Rhinoceros
When Adam when out to name the animals
He sat on a rock and he figured,
Horse and cow and goat and sheep,
Were the best names that he could deliver.
But Eve looked around at all of that glory,
Said Hon I think we should consider,
Something a bit more unique and refined,
For each and every critter.
It's a crash of rhinoceros, a pomp of Pekinese,
It's a gaggle of geese and a swarm of bees
A parliament of owl and gam of whale
A pandemonium of parrot and a watch of nightingale
A Huddle of Walrus, company of Moles,
Exultation of lark and a murder of crow,
A simple flock sheep and a herd of deer,
It's a bask of crocodiles and a sleuth of bear.
Adam looked shocked and scratched his head,
Eve stood there happy and beaming.
The animals gathered in close to their feet,
With roars of delight, barks and singing.
She's on a roll and just getting started
The birds and beasts held their breath.
What fine appellation would they receive,
And which of them would be the next？
It's a team of oxen and a mob of kangaroo,
It's a charm of finch if there are more than two.
A troubling of goldfish, a cluster of cats,
A bloat of hippopotami, a cloud of bats,
Ostentation of peacock, a barren of mules,
An army of ant, nursery of raccoon,
A parcel of penguins a dray of squirrels,
A bed of oyster with or without the pearls.
All that naming lasted far into the night,
Until even the insects had groupings.
Eve was still bright eyed and willing to finish,
Though her shoulders and fig leaves were drooping.
Adam said, Darling I'm proud and amazed
You're really one heck of a woman.
So lets go to sleep and tomorrow we'll rise,
And we'll start naming the rocks plants and woodlands.
It's a tittering of magpie, company of mole
It's a pride of lions a tribe of goats,
A plague of locust and a pack of dogs,
A leap of leopard an array of hedgehog
It's a caravan of camels, a drift of swan,
A sulk of foxes and the list goes on,
It's a an prickle of porcupine, a battery of hens,
A cohort of zebra and now once again
It's a colony of rabbits, and a sounder of boar
An ambush of tigers, now just a little more
It's a business of ferrets, a swarm of eels
A covey of quail and a pod of seals
It's a parade of elephant, a dole of dove
A bale of turtles and them all I love
And she kissed the horde of hamsters
On their furry little heads, sighed with satisfaction
And she went to bed
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